dead tired man

Mood : URGH!!!
Song : Ne Yo - Go on Girl

I.Am.Dead.Tired.Fuck.Yeah.
lol so many things happening cant catch my breathe only recently and gosh I feel so sleepy.

I took my Malay O's on monday ( 26th May) and gosh it was hard..Yeah I pretty much fail tons of mock exams..gotta study hard i suppose.I just realise that I havent been giving any song or video reviews so I decided to put all in on post.Hahah no its not make my post longer i swear =P
anyways chaios for now and SEE THE VIDS.Their worth the views


this side of paradise



plain white Ts - here there delilah


3 doors down - its not my time - one piece



One Piece AMV [ LuffyxNami ] - Until the day I die

and hell yes I'm a one piece freak
~peace

not in the mood.i found an old vid go see

photograph

Mood : WEEE~
Song : Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Dani California

Photos,Memories

hey guys!haha took a photo taking session on thurs and now I'm uploading
funny pics down there go take a look =D oh yeah,I may not be blogging for a few days(who bothers anyway)
due to some reasons,mock exam,medical probs and laziness but I've left new songs for you guys and dont forget to visit LICD if you havent

anyway enjoy =D


I ish looking suave!lols
Candid Shot from Azri -____-
Are We hot or are We hot =P

Some times..thats how syahrin laughs like..creepy or funny..I'm not sure =S

Can Be models right?haha Adam,eve and the bush!lols


Cak!


The Kids from 1e4 of 05


Gym Buddies =D


WARNING : Taking pictures with Azri may cause Retardation or Laziness.Precautions to be taken


Does it look like I and Su Give a fuck?maybe..we're not sure



"Sooo what you want?"
FUCK-FACE SHOT!

"Why does everything has to be so constipated?"
yeah i know i look retard..so does Su bahahaha


end

hows it hanging

song : Jonas Brothers - S.O.S
Chris Daughty -It Feels like tonight
Mood : "At least I'm smiling"

"because of you;
I feel the warmth i thought had left
Without you;
its becoming bleak,numb perhaps
Without you;
its tiring to smile or laugh at the simplest joke
when i speak to you;
everything that broke,shattered lost came back to me again
Oh how I love the feeling when i'm with you"

ahaha hello all.Yes.I AM NOT DEAD.amazing right?
guess how many times i tried to blog but couldnt?10 times..haha 10 times of going to blogger staring at the screen and couldnt think of anything to write..
haha so i'll just start of from the start.

I've finally stepped down from student council.the investiture was a huge event..Departments would do their skits will songs..and alot of cat walking.seriously in my year we didnt had such things..haha the were tears and such..I really dont know why their crying about though..haha its not that we're dead or something..lols

anyway theres a story wanna tell you all
its called
SABRI's BIG ADVENTURE TO THE CITY
so I had an assignment..to go take photos and I had a spiffy place in mind..somewhere at Raffles/Marina/the city.
At 12.30 i was off..thinking the esplanet was at Raffles city I took an MRT there..but apparently i thought I was at the wrong place so I smsed my cousin asking wheres the esplanet,at raffles or marina bay.He replied me telling me it was at Marina Bay.I then took an MRT there but all I found was a construction site

Once again I called up my cousin..apperently It is at Marina bay but you dont take the MRT there..you take a MRT to CITY HALL...darn..so after a 5 mins train ride and a 15-20 mins walk I finally reached Esplanet..I took tons of shots and got lost in the process..twice...hahaha
anywaythen I was off to Raffles Place..which is a mall.I kinda looked stupid going around girl's acessories.Why you ask?I was intenting to get Yi Ling and Fong Ee something..but I ean out of cash after having lunch..Bk is really expensive haha..who knew.. dont worry I'll make it up to you..
any all for knows..cant promise anyhing aha tatatas
btw..karan and steph and fatin and suhaimi rocks

eh hello

you gotta clicky the comic strip,thats just the preview

If you all are wondering what i've been up to recently,this well actually sums it all,I get bored and easily distracted easily.I'm trying my best to stay connected with my friends ,school is a mess though thats why i can get easily distracted =S.lols.
I'm slowing down work because of the O's and stuff.funny thing is lonely-ness is killing me..oh well i still have my random side.haha.

Today/yesterday was Izzats Bdae and it was rather funny at that..haha glad your 16 =D
Theres alot of things i rather not blog about because it isnt really nice to talk about.But alot of things change for the past few months and I'm learning to face it with a smile;even though I dont know shits..haha it scares people some times when you smile for no reason.

anyway i suppose that all for now i suppose,enjoy the comic courtesy of www.licd.com.cool website.

btw if i can I'll get a few photos of my work uniform aswell as my latest drawings and such.If its possible that is o0
haha nights

yawn

sorry guys,no music reference,no moods or whats so ever.I'm just gonna blog about why i'm not blogging as much these days.and the reason is I'm addicted to "God Of War"!!no just kidding.

I'm just really won out these few days and people around me dont seem to help.They put me down.I keep a smile on my face,they find another reason to put me down.

I think that I've explain in my previous post that i'm recovering from muscle stress or something like that..dunno what the doc calls it.

My weekend are really,well most of the time are busy.Its either work or school.I dont know who wants to hang out with me during the weekends but you do just tell me in advance so we can hang out.

and yes god dammit.I am tired,worn out and irritated/stress as the next guy.so for those who whine to me about every single fucking detail or show pms(i dont care weather your a guy or a girl)..unless its damn important to me,please..fuck off.

and yes btw,"god of war" rocks as much as pepsi.And i love pepsi alot.=)

Its Just that

Mood : "I cant be bothered" state
Song : Peterpan - mimpi sempurna

Its Just that

I love NP.I swear i do.The EXCOs who I've grown with for more then 3 years are more then friends to me.Their the only who can makes the terrible feeling in me gone for a moment.And in that moment gosh how i feel things should be like that forever.I just feel I've distant myself with the rest.I feel pathetic now days.And extra weight to the rest..I'll only slow them down like in the hike from ATC at Ubin to the port to Singapore or the 1st few days of campcraft training.Their at a higher level from me,every single one of them.I feel like the extra guy in every anime story or in movies.It makes me want to step up but in the other hand,i feel as if I cant go further.
gosh i have no mood to talk these few weeks..if you say i'm emo..I'm venting out my frustrations..

this is a short post but night anyways

i wont lie

Mood:Hurting
Song : 30 seconds to mars - hero
Coldplay - scientist
I'm sorry for not blogging like I did in the past or in the previous blog.I've been busy and tired.The usual crap but I have to admit something.
I've been having a series of headaches that would make my knees weak.Would make me cry.Would stop me in my tracks.I dont know weather anyone has experience something like this but it hurts.I'm not trying to be a whiny bitch but it does hurt.It goes on and off.Doesnt tell me what causes it and what stops it.Its also making my body do very weird things;shivering,cold sweat,breathing difficulty,heatyness and feeling light headed.some say its in my head.some say I need rest

I'm sorry that I've not been coming to school.
I'm sorry that I've not been attenting NPCC
I'm sorry that I've not been in my top form
but still,

I want to be at my best
I want to make people smile
I want to make the best at every outcome
I want to be at the top
I want to find someone to be with
I want to be an idol to someone
and

I'm trying to do my best
I'm trying to make people smile
I'm trying to change
I'm trying not to get involved with so many things
I'm trying not to be so obsessed being the odd one out
I'm trying my best to make it seem that everything is ok
I'm trying
but

the pain..it wont go away.Everything I do,everything I've done,everything that I've hope for is disappearing.I feel as if I'm fighting a losing battle.
The people around me,the dont seem to be helpful.Some mock on what I believe on,who I believed in.Some took a drastic change and become what I'd feared the most.Some are taunting me,trying to make me do things I would never do.

hahaha..its late,night all

oh how things have become

I'm worn out.
I'm tired.
All the bullshit you think I could handle are making my knees weak.
I just wanted to be there for someone
"Be a Hero"
but why did
alot of things changed
All I wanted to be there for someone
to have a friend
to have someone to love
Yet I feel so alone
It feels so dark
Its so scary
it makes me angry
saying things I wouldnt have said anymore
Doing things I wouldnt normally do
Its so scary
I dont even realise
that I've changed as well
but all I wanted was to be
a somebody
a hero
but now all I want is
to have someone to hold on to
to have someone to love to
to have someone to cry to
Why do I feel as if
everyone's burdens are on
my shoulders
though i'm not involved.
though I got nothing to do with it
though it seems to be such a small matter
why do I feel like such
am I too old for these?
but I'm still young
I dont get all of this..
maybe I'm just a retired Hero
so many things are in my head.
so so many things
nvm I'm tired..
I need sleep..
and maybe something else aswell
night

late update

bahaha I know its kind of..(is) late but what the heck.since everyone's been pestering me to blog i will then..so where do i start?sec 1 camp?

DAY |
i get to met my "thingies"..haha..very cute little bunch got all sorts.started of with making of the flag,manged to do it in time as well as going through some cheers and claps..later on was captain's ball..i think they've learned a value somewhere..i just cant remember =X anyways later it was dinner and then BLIND MAN'S TRAIL *dun dun dun...*and guess what?alot of kids nvr bring their blindfolds..how to be blind you tell me?so i and bunch of others went to the P.E room and brought out some old/havent been used shirts.There was nothing to cut with and I remembered I brought my jacknife with me in my pouch but stepharina insisted that she used it..hahaha lady always wins..
so later i brought my thingies up for blindman's trail..shant tell you any details..some very weird predicament but everyone(most of us) we safe and sound..but while we waited for the blindman's trail,Then all sections were to practice their campfire item for campfire night. after the blindmans's trail we had a meeting,washed up and went to sleep..and gosh music room is so cold =X

DAY ||
woke up at 5 am..reasons are iqbal flashed the flashlights into my eyes -_____- ...and a quick shower and went down for breakfast..bla after bla we went to Sentosa..Yet again i shant tell you the details but what i can say is Sentosa is very very nice =D and everyone came home safe of course*cough*after that was lunch..the muslim boys went for prayers..when we came back it ws indi something games..very very messy @_@..T'was field cooking after the mess..it rained so it got messier..
rocketh to the C.I's and C.I.CAK bros for cleaning the place up.after a few practice it was campfire..MR JAE CAME BACK!!but sadly campfire wasnt like it was like in the past =( nvm
a bla after a bla,had a meeting and then showered..decided to sleep with the np boys that night..the hall floor is even colder then the music room..BRRRR =X

DAY |||
woke up "early" to get ready for campcraft com..further details go check yi ling's blog hahaha..but I tell you this,we did well =) i hope
camp back to clear the mess we made and went home..T.K.Oed all the way..
thats all bah..nite2..

valentines

mood:moodless
song :boys like girl - hero heroine

oh valentine.what troubles you gave me
I'm not in the mood..seriously..
tired of this..chasing love and such..
heres something i made up.

" I'm tired of chasing after what i cant reach,
surprising me at every move i make
You've caught me off guard one too many times
you make my knees weak and shiver
with you I'm shivering-both scared and excited at the same time
I just want to be there for you
ever second.every minute.every hour
because whenever I'm with you
I feel like a hero
because you caught me off guard,
it makes me think
it makes me feel
thats why
I wont chase you,
its too predicable
I'm not in the mood because its the only mood i can get
or else i feel really down,really low.
thats why I want to be with you.
the one that I cant live without.
my valentines..
my bloody valentine "

and now for pics

it looks to me

mood: everyone stop with the nagging..
song: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Cant Stop


And I wonder if its all for youread the bottom part to understand the pic

1st thing 1st.
Happy Chinese New Year.
what do people do on cny?visit other people bah!!anyway this would be my 1st visit so I was pretty excited soo.. on FRIDAY..this is what happened

After prayers went to yi ling's house but guess what..i got lost -___-""sad right?haha after 20 minutes i managed to reach to her house.I was seriously "pai sey-ed" going to her house alone.Over there was ken,gou yan,hui ping, and tons of people...too bad the all spoke in chinese and played mahjong..kinda felt left out...nvm bah..to the sake of goodwill,I stayed there and joke around..haha.and I'm not a good cheater while playing cheat =S..too "gentleman".
soon it was 5,all of us went down.Most went down to slack..kinda hungry because 1 whole day didnt eat..exited haha -_______-(can blame me?)so Wen su,Irfan and me went to KFC..Azri followed us take bus..same bus to his home lol.then about to order food Yi ling called irfan's phone.She said she was coming since her mum ask her to eat dinner..lol..so decided to wait for her..haha,Irfan went to play with my PSP so I listen to my hp mp3.Yi ling came and we went to ordered..or me and Yi ling..the other two busy playing PSP..rofl..joked around and much then samson keep smsing yi ling.Wen Su then call him say"dont disturb my stead,bui song,come here and fight"and samson smsed yi ling he was on his way,gosh the look on her face..so we waited for him..for an hour..he actually waited for us outside KFC...bah...Yi ling's face so stressed..then Wen Su and Irfan went home and I sent Yi ling to the bus stop coz very dark..not nice for girls to walk in the dark.Later I explained samson everthing.hopefully things are going to be ok.

SATURDAY
woke up 7 plus to get ready stuff.The 9 of us were going to MS Cheong and Mr Loh's house..haha
learnt something new from Yi ling..oranges are traded not given for fortune.anway
WE GOT LOST
baaaahhh..so on and so forth,reached to her house,a terrace and gosh was it big.cool..Learned Tai ti there and watched MI.3..also Izzat is an excellent piano player.After that went to Mr Loh's house..didnt know his and mine are very close..anway his child very cute one..haha.and he has very comfy pillows.almost fell asleep there..=X..the CI's came to his house also,herman and his gf came late,we left before he came.went to Long John Silver for lunch and took the mrt home.Yi ling remineded me i had to buy sketch book or else I forgot..bahaha..so when the rest went home,Azri,Fong Ee,Samson and Yi ling followed me go to popular.. after that went to yamaha..Azri wanted to get a guitar string..met Mr Sin and had a bloody long talk..sorry ah Fong Ee and Yi ling..made you girls wait...
went home fell asleep at the couch barhx

Today(SUNDAY)
went to a picnic..cancelled everything..tommorow will get punish confirm..nuff said..had fun..karma will do the rest...wakakaka..btw cycling and actually cramp up ur thighs...need to work out nyee..

please i beg of you,I got too much things as it is..dont ask me to do this,ask me to do that.I'ma tired person.I give,give and give.let me rest..my body its aching,tired of giving seldom fake smiles,tired of giving in to people..just plain bloody tired..
it felt so blissfull when I didnt go to school.No worries,no nothing.but everything keep chasing me.
I thought I threw my feelings of love,but its aching..it misses someone..something needs to be filled..will it be complicated if our statues from good friends to lovers..Will it be that awkward?Are we both too busy to love?or are we too clueless?but with you,I feel that the wings they've clip can make me fly again.I can be a someone.but are we just to remain as friends?is it fated?or shall I make it fate?

and so i'll blog

Song : Boys like Girls - Great escape
Mood : smiling=)

and so I'll blogand we'll walk to where the Sun never sets nor the Night never leaves

you know what?I love these guys.Not only did they find the time to buy me a bdae present,they held my first bdae bash =).They are the ones who I sweat my blood out with,the ones I shared my laughter.yet I feel so apart.

so on FRIDAY
Was an unexpected day.At Np room Yiling gave me a superman necklace and said all of them bought it and I knew Shao Hui like it so much and had to give it up.Thanks dude =D
The sec 1's came in unexpectedly that day so we made some cheers for them and so on.Thought them a brief intro on drill.Gosh they look so "cute".haha. After that,herman came back to brief us.What he says does make a lot of sense.Shant go into details for that.AFTER the briefing,I got my 1st bdae bashing.Way wetter then I had expected.if you ever wanted the vid,ask me and I'll send it to you =D.All of us we sticky and wet and it was nearly 6.30 when we finished the bdae bash.So the guys took a quick shower and went for Dinner at Tender Best.Azri,Yiling and Fong Ee had to go home.Was really late when we finished our dinner so I and Shao Hui rushed to the 1st bus.hah Izzat showed off his muscles far away while we were waiting for out bus.Rofl?

SATURDAY

Campcraft was really different.Timing improved abit but still can be further improved.After that mr Loh blanja us pizza.Woah!!haha everyone had their fair share.oh yeah I learned back some of my lashings =D cool eh

SUNDAY
Early in the morn,mum and grandma gave me "red packet" for my bdae after that I was off to meet the rest at Big Mac at interchange.We took bus no.10 to Raffles with the everyone,gosh it was a long trip..half of us we're sleeping while the other half played with the Hp..nothing to do..haha.when reach there, camwhored them all the way..wen su especially..ask me to take so much photo -____- haha.Had a great walk.Joked around alot seh.Also played "wheres the handphone" with Yiling.=P sorry ah.A photo here and a joke ther,we all had lunch/dinner at BK..expensive sia T.T $20 gone.nvm was worth it..but shallnt tell.anyway we all took the mrt home.Izzat joked everyone that he cant kiss anyone coz of the hat,then when about to kiss wen su,he pushed his hat to another direction..funny sia.Went to east zone and learned how to play racing by Azri..hha and I owned him at this shooting game which name i cant remember =P. Went home after that and decided to have a hair cut..the mr barber man cut very nice..but cut of my 3 month fringe T.T
anyways here are the pics i camwhored

We'll roam the streets just for the sake of it

nice view eh?

what do you do when theres 4 handsome guys in a toilet with a mirror?
take photos
azri,azri..go block samson ish ish ish
we tried to run away from them,but these numbers keep coming back to us

damn thats tall
one heck of a view eh?
We're in it to win it
the people who made my bdae very special
emoing?or nice pose?i take both
We wont stand alone
been years since i got a thought full present =)

thats all ya'll =)
nite and tc

and whispers I miss you terribly

Mood: a Haiz and a Sigh
Song : Hellogoodybye :Here (in your arms)


and whispers I miss you terribly
things are soo messed up right now..npcc,studies,life,family.Yet it's too dangerous to share the burden to someone else..I dont wanna sound like a whiney emo bitch ass* no offence to any emos who read this..dont cut yourself* but gosh.

anyway something funny came up while i read fatin's tag on my cbox."sabri!!!!!! one more week! wahahaha! seriously." so i was thinking to myself " what's on next week?got what?the 27 right...hmm" and after thinking for so long I realised..it eas my birthday..sucks to be right?

Seems that i'm pulled back to Campfraft comp.weird eh?as a reserve la.Hopes the group does well.they just need to tighten all their skills.

oh yeah...ART PREP IS A BITCH...hahaha had to let that out =)

i'm sorry if I appear as a jerk to anyone.I just want to be alone some times and when I want your company your not there.It Sucks

thats all la..
np update go yilings blog.she very kuai update

I'm really

Mood:read to understand

Song : Nickelback - Someday


you guys have to really read this entry to understand what's been happening lately in my life or how I feel.If you want to know about the cca fair,go to yilings blog.am I too selfish?
am I really fake towards everyone?
why cant we just accept each other?
why must we find faults in others when we ourselves have faults aswell?
Are depending too much?
Trying too much?
Wanting to be accept?
Because I'd rather be with you or be alone
then seeing all this posers.
then bearing the stupid acts
then being criticized for being different
then being looked down because I'm not "up to standards"
Because I realised that I'm not strong anymore
I'm getting weaker.
I Feel as if I'm less sane by the events that happen
All I want know is company
I dont mind who,
but I'd like it to be you
I missed you
I loved you
I wanted you
but you..
you loved someone else
you love him
you miss him
you want him
And no,I'm not heartbroken
infact I feel better
why?
Because I dont have to force myself to think that you like me
I dont have to wonder anymore weather you do or not like me
I'm tired I suppose
why?I dont really know
I just am.
I'm really tired
I'm asking myself why am I doing these things
I'm tired of being laugh at even though I try so hard to be nice
I'm tired of those who think their cool
because they dye their hair
because they have a group of friends
probably the same group of friends who would run away in an instant when theres a fight
and probably the same group of friends who promised to help you in your time of need
I'm really sick and tired of this things
cant we just run away from it all?
cant we?
No we cant.
That's reality
We have to deal with it.
how?thats up to us.
And its up to us what we want things to be..
though some things cant be altered
Its up to us what we want our life to be.
I chose mine to have no regrets and speak my mind
but somehow i feel I'm regretting it.
but I'll find away
I always do.
thats what I tell myself
and always will

and that pretty sums it all
i appologies to those of are offended by this entry.

And she shot me down

Mood : empty
Song : Nancy Sinatra - Bang Bang ! my baby shot me down"Do you remember when you were 5 and I was 6?
We would always play horses made out of sticks
The colours we wore,black and white
Can you remember the day I fought for you that night?
Remembered that church bells rang while the music played our favourite song?
Didnt you read the letter i left you in the old black jacket?
BANG BANG
Why did you have to shoot me down?"
Adapted from Nancy Sintra - Bang Bang,my darling shot me down
by sabri


I feel tired.weak.scared.confused.yearning for something.
so many thoughts running through my mind..responsibilities,friends,family my future,my heart.
School is near..so is O level.I wanna carry on working but its taking a toll on myself.I love NPCC but its taking up so many things.I'm not sure but I think someone likes me.ARGH!?Since when a bloody loser like me have someone liking me..cupid is playing a bad 5-year old joke.
Might doing a poetry on lady death.haha see if i got mood to type la..tmr is new year's eve!countdown ok?
tc all

and a merry christmas to all

mode : one of those nights u wanna stare at the ceiling thinking
song : aerosmith - I dont wanna miss a thing

ITS CHRISTMAS

so to all who are celebrating,I wish you a very merry Christmas .
i'm sorry but I'm not in a christmas mood.Reminiscing about old times with Chin Siang and got me thinking"Will my heart feel the same way to another like I did when I fell in love for the 1st time?"and then something came to my thoughts " What if I were too obsessed like I were a year ago?Woundnt I be abandoning my friends?"got me in quite a puzzle.So I decided to come what may and think before I act.

I want to work on dedication and commitment next year.Suhaimi told me its what I put my mind into will work for me but how much I practice it seems that it'd put me down.Lack of self-confidence?over-confident?or pressure?

I'll work it out one way.
I'm really sorry if its not long like usual..I got so much to say but so little to express with.I might be spouting nonsense.But I tell you something though.

I'm not giving up.not now not this far.I'll find away.
school's opening soon,you all take care now =)

my true love

mood: seen worst days

song : Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

I'll Never Let You Fall,I'll be the First One To Catch your Tears I'll know you'll never love me the way I've loved you
but I wanna be one you can turn to,
pouring out the sorrows,
making you laugh when you dont want to
telling you that life's a bitch
Helping you decide weather he's the right one for you
I want to be the one whole you turn to when you need a shoulder to cry on
I want to be your guardian angel
~by sabri

How can I say this in a simple term...yesterday while I was in training,my muscle totally froze and moving too much propably cause my ligaments in the thigh to tear..so basically..I'm crippled.

today however, I managed to limp all the way to the bus stop and downtown east to study with Aryani.apparently she has an over protective boyfriend..haha which guy isnt protective of their girl?Anyway had lunch at bk and bought some stuff to help me recover fast..proteins and stuff...

I'll tell you this though..limping one place to another is a bitch..darnit..Steph,who I miss chatting to badly,told me to get a wheelchair..so after much consideration I decided to use the office chair in my room as a wheelchair,Steph was right it is major fun to use.Haha..

I got to go now..very drowsy for once..take care now