Then suddenly

Silly girl

silly girl, didnt you know how much i love you, ever since the day I said hi?

I'd kiss you good night but tonight your'e just far away.

I'd tell you I love you but I told myself I wouldnt so I'll miss my chance again.

I'd tell you every time I never speak to you I miss you like hell, but I cant.

I'd tell you your like a melody in my head but you already know that from the nights I sang.

silly girl, didnt you know how much I love you, ever since the day I said hi?

what i did in 2009

BOLD THE THINGS YOU DID IN 2009!!


Dyed your hair an odd color.
Went skinny dipping.
Bought something you didn’t need.
Snuck out of your house.
Became obsessed with a song no one knew.
Learned a song on your phone with your keypad.
Knitted something.
Ran a mile.
Fell in love.
Said, “like yeahh” too many times.
Lost your closest friends.
Got into a fight with someone you loved.
Climbed a tree.
Did something you said you wouldn’t.
Figured out who your real friends were.
Graduated High School.
Shopped online.
Realized who you truly are.
Sang karaoke.
Flew across the world.
Performed in front of a large audience.
Met someone new you found online.
Found a new band you now love.
Realized that Kanye West essentially sucked.
Got drunk.
Got high.
Spoke to a police officer.
Realized everyone is a hypocrite.
Panicked over something stupid.
Failed a class.
Fell out of love.
Played a video game for hours straight.
Spent time with your family.
Ate dinner alone.
Cried in the shower.
Gained a new family member.
Shot off your own fireworks.
Made a snowman.
Got yelled at for no reason.
Waved at people you didn’t know in passing cars.
Changed your entire look.
Had sex.
Ran outside naked when it was freezing out.
Made your own fire.
Laughed at something that made no sense.
Fell asleep on the phone.
Told someone you loved them.

found this at nad's blog. awesome right

update

this is my fave photogenic person. and bubu. bubu is bubu
Eddie : Hell no they didnt -refer to stomp-

Jing yi : oh noes!
Eddie : this is my grr face! SS it!

Niki : lol ok!
"yeah so I've changed in the past few months and yes to those who didnt knew, I cut my hair and planning to keep it this way"

Monster

His little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.

Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window...

That night he caged her.
Bruised and broke her.
He struggled closer.
Then he stole her.
Violet wrists and then her ankles.
Silent Pain.
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.

Monster.
How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the windows.
I will.
Hear their voices.
I'm a glass child.
I am Hannah's regrets.

Monster.
How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down.
Murder ears with pillow lace.
There's bath tubs.
Full of glow flies.
Bathe in kerosene.
Their words tattoed in his veins.

-Meg & Dia, monster

Those words you say, so easily. your passing remarks which are taunts to me.
Those remarks which make me bite my lips, and clench my fist in anger.
Those remarks that break me down.
I know im neither good nor clever but give me some decency and space.

Why do I feel as if I'm thrown to one corner once I've become invalid.

Is every move I've made wrong in your eyes?
You said you gave it all fair, at times i doubt that or am I being selfish.
This is why I never talk about real things.
This is why I'm always in my room and on the computer.
You'll never know how much I'd love to see the beauty of the world.
But then neither did you.

So tell me how to feel; from this marionette you've created. Tell me how should I feel.

then she came along

I was at my worst point today. worse of all I had to keep it under. i had to keep laughing. and smiling.

then she said " I believe you are a good man, I have faith in you".

those words brought me to actual tears.

Only god knows how much I needed her and is so lucky to have met her. even if its just for awhile.

I'm lucky so please dont take her away from me.

please.

insomniac

I've got soul but..

When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out

And when there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain't changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier
I got soul, but I'm not a soldier
...

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out
You're gonna bring yourself down
You're gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
Yeah, you're gonna bring yourself down

Over and out, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I've done
All these things that I've done
If you can hold on
If you can hold on

Help.

Where I feel I was brought from

What Decade Fits Your Personality Best?

Eddie took the "What Decade Fits Your Personality Best?" quiz and the result is 1930's.

You are strong and determined and have what it takes to get through life's storms. You are very helpful to those around you-- be it your friends, your family, or even a neighbor in need. You are a great leader and strong-willed person, and take challenges as a way to better yourself...But you also have a deep sense of warmth and nurturing for those you care about. You are well-rounded and tough because you have to be. You aren't a "diva" but rather a humble person with admirable character. With more hard-working, quality like you, this world would be a much better place. By being able to turn a little into a lot, you know how to make life enjoyable even if it's just through the little things.

Have a nice week people.

Things that I never spoke of

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands (how I feel)
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feels like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help me 'Cause no one knows

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm going through changes, changes

I'm blind and shakin'
Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes

Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it

But I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately
And I get suffocated, I hate this
But I'm going through changes, changes

hear my plea, please if you could.

innocence

papa...mama..i like..this home..

Good morning world

Good morning world. Now get your ass out of bed and keep moving.
seriously

Impact

All we want is to impact the world.

-kaziac Kasmadi


I'll change for the better. I promise :]

bunny

gosh. im walking a limp. least i got niki doing the sugar dance. hahaha

bad days gone! GG

HAPPY NEW YEAR

a

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Each breath escaping my body becomes transparent and goes far away
And even when I think everything’s dark, I’m only blindfolded

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the reflection of the sunrise sparkling on the sea disappears completely

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People’s hearts are constantly changing, peeling away fresh layers
with each new phase of the moon

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

And still, the journey goes on, even on these calm days
And still, each new phase of the moon reflects its light onto my heart

Offering a prayer, I wait for a new day to come
Until the reflection of the sunrise sparkling on the sea disappears completely

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

We are all rowing the boat of fate, the waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
Even that is a beautiful journey; even anything is a beautiful journey

I feel like disappearing some times. I feel like dropping everything. just once.
I cant see her smile anymore.

Not anymore.Hers belong to someone else. And she smiles only for him.

So let me disappear. just this once.

I feel as if others cant afford to give a damn.

Happy new year everyone.