photo updates

Heyyo people,I just realised I got bajillion photos to blog about so might as well post it now.Anyway a few updates before I go to bed eh,monday to tues is my term tests,I got the big ass letter from Ministry of Defence,umm going away from the 14 to the 18 which is a week bahaha and I bought 3 sets of topman which is approved from kas.If its approved from kas,your not a mat :D

bla bla bla enjoy the photos aites

s'not that I'm acting cool,My eyes get small when I dont wear specs at night D:

please ignore the fact that I look that a complete retard.Instead look into Nad's big eyes bahaha :3

even with a candid shot she has the ability to pose -____- dont ask
Eddie: They stole mah muffin

Ayid: Jazzy hands,Jazzy hands

Bubu:Fishy fishy

Riyas:hmmm..I must look good

Jing Yi: Just keep smiling again

Hafiz:Jyeaah
old pic :X
If any one says they hate each other,I'd beg to differ wit my fist.They cant stand appart from each other from a min.so sweet :P
This is Suzie,My bro loves her alot
This guy,is my bro
Again,please ignore the fact that I look retarded.Just look at the 3 angels behind me ok alrd
Hafiz: Need sleep..

Eddie: I'm not a smoker,see how white mah teeth are D:

Riyas:Wuuussaaaap :X

Afiq:why my face arh half gone arh

Kas: Aku cute :)

Jing Yi: must..keep..smiling

Bubu: Did we take tthe photo alrd?oh snape.Must smile ah?
Riyas:Son,what are you doing

Eddie:Cam whoring

Riyas:Ohhh
Hafiz:I am soo cute,just like that

Bubu:HAAAIP :3

Jing yi: Caaak

Eddie: wheres the other 4 again?
Jing Yi:RAWR

Eddie: NYAAA~

Riyas: Damn I look hawt

Bubu: umm ok...-steps back- XD

Mom: Smile now?dang I missed it

Eddie: I know,I love you too mom
Ayah: Oh satay oh satay maner la kau satay~
Eddie:woi u sleeping arh

Riyas:Meditation before my flight son
Hafiz:Need my need for speed now..
Afiq: :O

Eddie :O
Ayid : Cute tak I?Letak pat facebook la sia

Eddie: I feel cool

Jing Yi : Fishy fishy :3
Bubu: Eddie,your beanie to big lurh
Jing yi: :X

Riyas: uh huh,uh huh,yeah  good luck with that

anyway guys imma crash in now,kinda late.See ya when I see ya aites :D

To whoever it may concern

Clark & Lana - Far Away by Nickelback - The top video clips of the week are here

"This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go"

Right now you hate my guts.I deleted you from my facebook,msn and removed you from my blog.You called me the utmost cruel creature you've met and a petty one at that.You called me immature and asked me to grow up.Your dissapointed at me.Your angry at me that I never fought back.You have all right reasons to.

but what do you know about being grown up?Do you understand responsibility? do you know how it feel to bear responsibility for everything eventhough it isnt yours to hold in the first place?Do you know the meaning of sacrifice?When other boys where having fun with their father during the weekend I had to follow my mother and learnt how to take care of a wedding event. What do you know about growing up? What do you about being mature and saying no.What do you know about backing down eventhough you know you have every right to speak your mind?What do you know about me?Do you know I had to admit that my father was useless.Do you know I had to loose every friend I knew because I had to juggle between family,cca and work in the past. 

What?I might not know all of your problems but do you even know what its like being me? You said that we were best friends forever? What kind of friend says "make an appointment" to a person who've been asking you out for nearly a month.Are you such a big shot that I have to make an "appointment"?

Do you know whats it like for me to defend you when the rest of my friends say I shouldnt bother bout you.You were the greatest friend I ever had.You were the one who got me addicted to facebook and layan me till 3 am in the morning.I could state everything great about you but you only noticed that I'm gone after nearly a month.

You post those things on the blog?What if I didnt read them like I did.

You think just because I deleted off your contacts means I forgotten bout you?I visit your blog everyday just to make sure your o.k. I thought if I removed any contacts with you you'd be happier not seeing a douchebag like me. You need not care about an annoying person like me.

But if you really treasured the friendships we had you would have atleast the decency of texting me why I'm acting like this not complain how much of an asshole I am on your blog.

I wanted to give you space but those words you say a month a go hurt like hell. I might be childish but I have my reasons.If you knew why you wouldnt be saying that too.

Urgh,school term is almost over.Cant believe it man,happened so fast.Meh time flies when your having fun I suppose.Anyway gonna be busy haaah.cant wait till the tests are over then can finally get some good shut eyes and wake up at 11.

p.s.I recieved a big assed letter from Mindef.

nites everyone

I'd come for you

"

Just one more moment,
Thats all that's needed,
Like wounded soldiers,
In need of healing
Time to be honest
This time I'm bleeding
Please don't dwell on it 
'Cause I didn't mean it

I can't believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground,
But it doesnt matter 'cause I made it up forgive me now
Everyday I spent away my souls inside out
Gotta be some way that I can make it up to you now, somehow

By now you know that,
I'd come for you,
No one but you,
Yes I'd come for you,
But only if you told me to,
And I'd fight for you,
I'd lie its true,
Give my life for you,
You know I'd always come for you

"

-nickelback,I'd come for you

projects are almost done.what cant be done,leave it to that I suppose.

on a personal note,Everyone knows that some time,you can never fill in those gaps in someone else's heart no matter how much you really want to nor get someone to fill that spot in but I want to try.I keep telling myself I want to be there not just because of a small crush or maybe the person is rich or the person is cool.But to be there just for that cause of being there.Oddly I feel as if I'm distancing myself away.I feel as if you cant be bothered with me,so why should I be bothered back?Its bloody annoying dammit,stupid principles are clashing with each other.What to do,what to do.I suppose I havta keep my mind occupied till things are settle down again or alteast I feel that it is settle down.No pressure.haha.

anyway look up the song nickelback-I'd always come for you.Youtube and metacafe dont have it or is having a hard time loading it for me right now so just search the song.It has a feel good vibe in it I promise.

Nites people :P

btw,should I cut my hair?

missing you,missing me

" No matter what I do,

All I think about is you,
even when I'm with my boo,
Ya know I'm crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And(uh) she got the hots for me, the finest thing my hood has seen
But oh, no, no, she's got a man and a son doh'ohh
But that's o.k. cause I, wait for my cue and just listen, play my position like
a short stop, pick up everything mommy hittin

And in no time, i'm gonna make this friend mine
And that's for sure
Cause I, I've never been the type to break-up a happy home
But(uh) somethin' bout baby gurl, I just can't leave alone
So tell me ma what's it gonna be she said
You don't know what you mean to me"

god I miss someone like hell now D:

urgh..dont know what to say.bloody projects are a pain in the ass

I'll feel better tmr.

I'll feel even greater if I saw her smile because I made her smile.

urgh.

someone just shoot me

When love knocks you down

Oh god,flu is gone but I feel waayy drowzy.I blame those headache painkillers.I'm scared their back again.didnt go to school.Couldnt even move my butt out of bed.Crappers much?anyway This song is waaay addictive so Imma post it up.Enjoy everyone as I flop onto my bed :D

nights

Knock you down - Kerli Hilson feat Kanye West,Ne-Yo

Heh, not again
Ohh, this ain't supposed to happen to me

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Tell me now can you make it past your Caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams that
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'

We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick, hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we can't let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes

Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
How could a goddess ask, someone that's only average
For advice, OMG, you listen to that bitch?
Whoa, it's me, baby this is tragic
'Cause we had it, we was magic

I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I'mma ask him

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will u bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoa, whoa, I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoa, whoa, and if it hits better make it worth the fall
(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Won't see it coming when it happens, hey
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down

Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
You see when love knocks you down
Yeah

He lost his soul

For once,can anyone not rub their correct answers in my face.Pull down the things that I believe in.For once cant you guys just let me be me.I'm sick of smiling.I dont wanna see anyone right now,not even you.Why do I have to bear responsibility whenever things go bad.Why do I feel as if nothing has been done.Cant I just run away.

Fuck.Someone just shoot me awake.

Unhearted

Photograph each day so we can live forever,. 

Sit in the light to make the dark a little darker

 and I dance to move only you 

and I fight to kiss and make up. 

I scream for some silence. 

I laugh to laugh for once

, not there so you notice I'm gone

 and I breathe cuz its neccessary 

and I sigh when I see the moon. 

I dream to make sleep less boring.. 

until there was you and I feel in the absence of heart 

and I plug my eyes to cry. 

I'm a hopeless romantic and 

kicking the habit but all hearts have darts.

Sweet red cherry blossom tree that lives in both you and me. 

You marked your name but I can see, its not on me. 

So I've shamelessly gone and made myself come undone. 
Heavy hangs my head when I'm Unhearted.


I wear this angels crown to cover up my devils frown 

and upon my broken chest lay a struggle between loneliness 

and things that are out of place like my head in outer space 

and the carpet you walked on the ceiling that cries please don't walk away

 
Sweet red cherry blossom tree that lives in both you and me.

 You marked your name but I can see, its not on me.

 So I've shamelessly gone and made myself come undone. 
Heavy hangs my head when I'm Unhearted.

Bellow it out with all the breath in my lungs.

 Apologize for all that I've done. 

You did a number on me and a fantastic job. 

In the scheme of all things we never felt. 

When your hearts been breached and your guards been let down;

 You've rotten and spoiled me into the ground and a good mess forgives all the rest we allow ..

Sweet red cherry blossom tree that lives in both you and me.

 You marked your name but I can see, its not on me. 

So I've shamelessly gone and made myself come undone. 
Heavy hangs my head when I'm Unhearted

Sweet red cherry blossom tree that lives in both you and me. 

You marked your name but I can see, its not on me. 

So I've shamelessly gone and made myself come undone. 
Heavy hangs my head when I'm Unhearted...

Sweet red cherry blossom tree 
that lives in both you and me

So many things happened.O'm damn surprised I didnt break under pressure.Might be because of these new awesome friends I have.I'd do anything to make them smile.I really would. hahax

Thinking and missing makes me unable to sleep at night.Damn..

anyway imma try counting sheeps.Go enjoy the song aites

I'd be here

"Sat by the steps of the stairs and took out a stick.Eyes glazed,my thoughts trailed one after the other.Just when I thought everything was going to be ok,I felt as if I dropped and no one noticed.They did though,but their voice became muffled over time.I couldnt bother with anyone or anything.I felt like going away,far far away so no one knew me and no one would bother why I was is such a state.Then it hit me,once I miss my family & friends,how do I go back?At that point I felt pathetic.Useless but I couldnt tell anyone.I just cant.Its just a mood swing I keep telling myself.

I hear those worried questions but I couldnt smile.only lie."I'm ok" I repeated it.

Your'e just another person,why do you affect me so much? I dont understand.I looked down at m shoes and looked up.I stubbed the cigg and walked out the door.Eyes still glazed but smiling."

I have seriously no mood to blog.none to draw.I feel tired and pissed.Yet dissapointed.I dont know why.It might be due to the lack of sleep.Maybe.Schools getting a little bit harder since deadlines are getting close.hahax anyway imma off to bed.just blogged so  you guys know I'm not dead yet.

ps.Dora,you told me I was a stranger once.You said your breaking down.Now I'm telling you for the 20th time I'd keep you smiling.Its if you need me or not.I could tell you what to do and not to do but I dont think your'e the sort who'd believe me even if I did tell you.Please,you gotta take it down a notch.

It hurts me to see you like that,crying,feeling pathetic.I really dont want to lose another friend,someone like you.You dont know what you mean to me

"eddie:zomg

jing yi:whatever"

Eddie:Nad,Nad,NadNad...

Nad:Wut?

Eddie:hungreehh

Nad:Zomg!

Eddie:I've been kidnapped.Helps!

Ayid:All your base belongs to me

Afiq:digging your nose I see

eddie:Dont disturb

Eddie:ERIC STOP HUMPING ME!

Eric:teehee

Jeremy:I cant see me

Jing Yi: -Just Keep Smiling-

Nad: Eh take picture

Eddie:I look retarded

Afiq:EH CAK!BUAT APER ARH?!

Eddie:I told you I cant smile

Nad:pffts

LJ:Fishy Fishy

Eddie:You stole my look

Riyas:Hand off their mine.MINE I TELLS YA

Riyas: Good lord my tummy..fries..urgh

Afiq: Digging your nose is awesome

Nad: Fishy fishy

Eddie:I look like a gorrilla

Hafiz:omnomnomnom

Eddie:Donut and I will rule the world.You'll see

~theres the pics i promise.now go laugh one corner

ps.silly girl,theres nothing be fraid of kay?your cheeks are mine

silly girl lit up my day and i'm still smiling inside

I followed this silly girl with her friend to the bus stop on a monday,I put my default face on since she was talking to her friend and i had my psp..which cracked the next day ;(.anyway at the interchange I decided I couldnt follow her to popular like I wanted to since it was late so I waved a small goodbye.

what happened next made me smile the whole week long inside.

The silly girl texted me 20 mins later said she was sorry.

I asked her what for

she said for making me sad.

at that point I didnt know either to knock her on the head for being damn silly or just give her a hug(which i never do give to people) for caring.

Silly girl made me smile.

I'm going to make her smile too.

nites people

so long and good night

Gotta admit I've been a douche.My intentions I swear was good.I tried to make it to a time when we both can meet but it seems like it wouldnt have worked out anyway.I really wanted to ask you out because after that I wouldnt be seeing your face anymore.Best bets 5 months down the road you wouldnt recognise me anymore.I wanted to make u smile,least for the last time.Its not about me not growing up,its about me dont wanting to grow up just for a day.Fuck,I'd be too busy to say "hi" let alone give u a text.I wanted to make a point to turn back the days where we goof off,just one day.My intentions were suppose to be good but if it made you upset then I'm sorry.At a point of time you ment the whole world to me,right now,nothing much.Nothing much to hold on to anyway.You'd probably be cursing my name by now but seriously I dont give a fuck.Not even when you'd call my full name.

If growing up means leaving a part of me behind,then I'd say so long and good night.Nothing fancy,nothing dramatic.Just so long and good night.