and so i'll blog

Song : Boys like Girls - Great escape
Mood : smiling=)

and so I'll blogand we'll walk to where the Sun never sets nor the Night never leaves

you know what?I love these guys.Not only did they find the time to buy me a bdae present,they held my first bdae bash =).They are the ones who I sweat my blood out with,the ones I shared my laughter.yet I feel so apart.

so on FRIDAY
Was an unexpected day.At Np room Yiling gave me a superman necklace and said all of them bought it and I knew Shao Hui like it so much and had to give it up.Thanks dude =D
The sec 1's came in unexpectedly that day so we made some cheers for them and so on.Thought them a brief intro on drill.Gosh they look so "cute".haha. After that,herman came back to brief us.What he says does make a lot of sense.Shant go into details for that.AFTER the briefing,I got my 1st bdae bashing.Way wetter then I had expected.if you ever wanted the vid,ask me and I'll send it to you =D.All of us we sticky and wet and it was nearly 6.30 when we finished the bdae bash.So the guys took a quick shower and went for Dinner at Tender Best.Azri,Yiling and Fong Ee had to go home.Was really late when we finished our dinner so I and Shao Hui rushed to the 1st bus.hah Izzat showed off his muscles far away while we were waiting for out bus.Rofl?

SATURDAY

Campcraft was really different.Timing improved abit but still can be further improved.After that mr Loh blanja us pizza.Woah!!haha everyone had their fair share.oh yeah I learned back some of my lashings =D cool eh

SUNDAY
Early in the morn,mum and grandma gave me "red packet" for my bdae after that I was off to meet the rest at Big Mac at interchange.We took bus no.10 to Raffles with the everyone,gosh it was a long trip..half of us we're sleeping while the other half played with the Hp..nothing to do..haha.when reach there, camwhored them all the way..wen su especially..ask me to take so much photo -____- haha.Had a great walk.Joked around alot seh.Also played "wheres the handphone" with Yiling.=P sorry ah.A photo here and a joke ther,we all had lunch/dinner at BK..expensive sia T.T $20 gone.nvm was worth it..but shallnt tell.anyway we all took the mrt home.Izzat joked everyone that he cant kiss anyone coz of the hat,then when about to kiss wen su,he pushed his hat to another direction..funny sia.Went to east zone and learned how to play racing by Azri..hha and I owned him at this shooting game which name i cant remember =P. Went home after that and decided to have a hair cut..the mr barber man cut very nice..but cut of my 3 month fringe T.T
anyways here are the pics i camwhored

We'll roam the streets just for the sake of it

nice view eh?

what do you do when theres 4 handsome guys in a toilet with a mirror?
take photos
azri,azri..go block samson ish ish ish
we tried to run away from them,but these numbers keep coming back to us

damn thats tall
one heck of a view eh?
We're in it to win it
the people who made my bdae very special
emoing?or nice pose?i take both
We wont stand alone
been years since i got a thought full present =)

thats all ya'll =)
nite and tc

and whispers I miss you terribly

Mood: a Haiz and a Sigh
Song : Hellogoodybye :Here (in your arms)


and whispers I miss you terribly
things are soo messed up right now..npcc,studies,life,family.Yet it's too dangerous to share the burden to someone else..I dont wanna sound like a whiney emo bitch ass* no offence to any emos who read this..dont cut yourself* but gosh.

anyway something funny came up while i read fatin's tag on my cbox."sabri!!!!!! one more week! wahahaha! seriously." so i was thinking to myself " what's on next week?got what?the 27 right...hmm" and after thinking for so long I realised..it eas my birthday..sucks to be right?

Seems that i'm pulled back to Campfraft comp.weird eh?as a reserve la.Hopes the group does well.they just need to tighten all their skills.

oh yeah...ART PREP IS A BITCH...hahaha had to let that out =)

i'm sorry if I appear as a jerk to anyone.I just want to be alone some times and when I want your company your not there.It Sucks

thats all la..
np update go yilings blog.she very kuai update

I'm really

Mood:read to understand

Song : Nickelback - Someday


you guys have to really read this entry to understand what's been happening lately in my life or how I feel.If you want to know about the cca fair,go to yilings blog.am I too selfish?
am I really fake towards everyone?
why cant we just accept each other?
why must we find faults in others when we ourselves have faults aswell?
Are depending too much?
Trying too much?
Wanting to be accept?
Because I'd rather be with you or be alone
then seeing all this posers.
then bearing the stupid acts
then being criticized for being different
then being looked down because I'm not "up to standards"
Because I realised that I'm not strong anymore
I'm getting weaker.
I Feel as if I'm less sane by the events that happen
All I want know is company
I dont mind who,
but I'd like it to be you
I missed you
I loved you
I wanted you
but you..
you loved someone else
you love him
you miss him
you want him
And no,I'm not heartbroken
infact I feel better
why?
Because I dont have to force myself to think that you like me
I dont have to wonder anymore weather you do or not like me
I'm tired I suppose
why?I dont really know
I just am.
I'm really tired
I'm asking myself why am I doing these things
I'm tired of being laugh at even though I try so hard to be nice
I'm tired of those who think their cool
because they dye their hair
because they have a group of friends
probably the same group of friends who would run away in an instant when theres a fight
and probably the same group of friends who promised to help you in your time of need
I'm really sick and tired of this things
cant we just run away from it all?
cant we?
No we cant.
That's reality
We have to deal with it.
how?thats up to us.
And its up to us what we want things to be..
though some things cant be altered
Its up to us what we want our life to be.
I chose mine to have no regrets and speak my mind
but somehow i feel I'm regretting it.
but I'll find away
I always do.
thats what I tell myself
and always will

and that pretty sums it all
i appologies to those of are offended by this entry.