These Silent Scream

"Within that 10 seconds,I felt as if every bit of my was being thrown away with a cough.I was breathless.I was scared.What if that was my breathe?Have I done anything great enough to leave an impression in others?

My Mentality was being to shatter as my body did.But it wasn't only my body and mind that was shattering,my entire life and those around it too.My Family.If Everyone lived their own world who'd care for the others.

At this point I felt like a hypocrite,I helped others but what did I do for my family.Everything I know was breaking apart.

I thought that I had enough swallowing my pride thats why I'd ignore others pleas but then it struck me.What is pride?Cant you be proud that you help others.Cant you be proud that you made others laugh and smile.I might be smiling genuinely but wouldnt a fake smile comfort others just as much as a real one?

All i know was I have to pick myself up slowly and move slowly.I have to accept that I've fallen down.All i need now is to pick myself up and do it with a smile.I dont mind if i'm gonna be called crazy.

I made my way towards my bed and stared at the mural I painted as I laid my head to rest.There was only one question I havent answered myself yet."Would my Novacaine be the result of my timely downfall..."-anon

Sorry for not updating,too busy enjoying school life,dragging lappy to school,picking my nose,knocking syimah on her head,annoying ayie at his work place,making new friends and goof off,skipping and prancing down the lab hall,learning how to do web page designs and stuff,trying to get this lady's attention,righting old wrongs and of course sleeping in the weeee hours.

Anyway my class is super duper fun.Having great laughs with them.Its really weird how easy we can bond though.I have a feeling that jingyi is mind controlling the other classmates -shifty eyes-.

Tp is really like a work place though,you have to apply for everything u need,mc,leave and even the study room =__=But the whole place is awesome.Freedom there is freaky I can say since I'm a guy of discipline -coughcough-

heres some random convo between me and my friends ;
Eddie:(mostly)Everyone forgot mine (birthday) a long time ago so i dont bother bout it
Syimah: -.- dude,youre insane or something.I think we have an emergency
Eddie:.....
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Anyway I'd upload pictures once i feel like it so toodle loo <3
and someone drag me out to play billard pleeeaase?

bored

Family,brothers&lovers

So proud of this lil mutha fucker.He's got a long way to go but he's getting there.He might be stepping on lions tail,but I'll be the one grabbing its jaws to live another day.

Anyways I have my own debit card!weeweet!best nyer.Dad wanted to go to the bank before Friday prayers to update his bank book thats when I decided to make my very own account.Go-Card.Pretty awesome.Its like a debit card/ATM card..I'm talking too much bout this -suspicious stare-

After all the hoo-haas were finish,we were late for prayers =____=
who'd guess?pffts.
Wanted to meet Ayie at work but he wasnt there.Mutha fucker =____=
Dad made some freaking jokes about the girls in FBT.He called em air-con pants.get my drift?
Got home after bought a lightbulb which didnt fit into the screw in the end.sheesh now i gotta go out and buy a new one...troublesome i tellsya

not gonna say anything else personal though.Not in the mood.
So anyway catch ya all on the flipside

quizzes

To get my mind off things I decided to do a bunch of quizzes on blogthings.Here's all of wht i got

You Are Affectionate

Your life is full of love and friendship - and you always have more to give. You have an open heart. You are willing to take that leap and put your faith in people. You see the good in everyone and everything. You are a very sympathetic person. The people you love make you very happy. You feel warmly toward those around you.

What Kind of Happy Are You?

You Would Win Best Director

You are a mastermind with a great plan. You can visualize what you want in life. You are good at leading people and helping them do what you want. You are an excellent coach and teacher. You are a hard worker, and you're willing to see a project to completion - no matter how difficult it gets. You have the both capacity and drive to be an amazing director. Most importantly, you have the vision that's needed.

What Would You Win an Oscar For?

Your Valentine's Day Personality is Heartbroken

Valentine's Day is something you could potentially enjoy, but not this year. It just brings up too many bad feelings and memories for you right now. That's the problem with Valentine's Day. It's a double edged sword. The better it feels when you're in a couple, the worse it feels when you're single.

What's Your Valentine's Day Personality?

You Attract a Capricorn

When down to earth, responsible, loyal Capricorn meet you, they've met their match. You are as ethical as Capricorn, and they respect your values You are also able to be a loyal and caring partner to your Capricorn, even when times are tough. You are there to cheer up or motivate your Capricorn - which never goes unappreciated.

What Sign Do You Attract?

-cough-anycapriconhere-cough-

You Would Be a Good Spouse 85% of the Time

You have what it takes to be an amazing wife or husband. You are caring, patient, giving, and romantic. You are willing to work for a marriage. More than anything, you're not about to let your ego ruin a relationship. You are humble and unselfish. And that's the key to being a good spouse.

Would You Be a Good Wife or Husband?

You Are 45% Kissable

Believe it or not, you are generally not very kissable. Someone who loves you may be able to kiss you anyway, but it could be more enjoyable. Make sure you have the freshest breath and whitest teeth possible. And relax a little! If you seem confident and healthy, you will get kissed a lot more.

How Kissable Are You?

so I'm a smoker,I'll just find someone who smokes too..buwahahaha X]

Your Height Says You're Daring

You are a true adventurer, and you live for the thrill. You have a lot of charisma, and you're good at convincing people to join you in your schemes. You are open to the world, and you make connections easily. You have lots of friends. You are likely to have many life paths to choose from. There are many possibilities open to you. You are about as tall as the average British man.

What Does Your Height Say About You?

You Are Demure Sexy

You are sexy because you are reserved. You keep most of your passion hidden. In truth, you are a very sensual and sexual person. But you mostly keep this to yourself. You are secretly very interested in sex and very open minded. You definitely have a wild side most people don't know about. You are comfortable with every aspect of your sexuality... but you don't flaunt it. When you're finally alone with someone you trust, it's like flipping a switch. You're sexually savvy, exciting, adventurous, and carefree. No one would ever guess it!

What's Sexy About Your Name?

did not know that..I swear

You Are Kidnapping

You love to be in control. You are incredibly dominant. A part of you even likes to make people suffer. It's all about power! You love to take risks, especially if the potential payoff is huge. But you wouldn't be in crime only for the money. You're twisted enough to just enjoy screwing with people.

What Felony Are You?

oooo~rope~

You Are an Eyebrow Piercing

You are unique, quirky, and more than a little eccentric. You cultivate the weirder sides of your personality, and you don't mind sharing them. Ever since you were a kid, you've had strong opinions. You've never been like everyone else, and you're okay with that. And you've always been able to tell people exactly what you think - even when they don't want to hear it. You love to create, dream, imagine, and communicate. You live in your own universe. And unlike most people who live in their own little world, you're happy to invite anyone in!

What Piercing Are You?

I always thought i was a eye raiser..geddit?

anyways thats all I have fer ya
Take Care aites?
see ya soon

i'm suppose

I'm suppose to blog my trip to kl but I'm too butt lazy soo yeah.DENIED~
anyways tdy i went out to bugis with Fadhly and Alvin.Gosh I missed the two fellows.
I had to deliver my mom's cheque 1st at OUB bank.seems like every time i go out i havta go to the bank area =___=.
Anyways,We were suppose to meet at 12 but I kinda got excited and left the house around 11..so i practically had half an hour left.What to do,What to do?
ROAM THE FUCKING MALL!!
yeah.its been awhile since i just well roamed the mall just for that sake of it.I'm the get in get out,get no trouble kind of dude.But today wasnt my typical day today i suppose.
Apparently if I dont look scary I'm very nice..so i got approached by alot of stall vendors..nuff said.
Met Fadhly and there we go to Bugis.talks bout her and stuff and before we knew it we were at the center of bugis mall o____o
Alvin popped up behind us when we were heading to the mrt to pick him up.No idea how he did it but he did.Anyway Alvin was kind enough to let me have a puff.-usually he'd be go away or something like that-
a la and a dah we were walking around Bugis Street.Alvin and I manage to find Fadhly some straight cuts!whoohoo!he look awesome in it.All he needs now is a set of confidence!-who the hell am I to say that..sheesh-
Anyways we went our way to Soul Garden for some meat!been a long time since I went there.terribly fun!Met Zul and his gal too.Akward but decided to play the goof like everyone thought I'd be.

After Soul Garden we went to the Arcade.Alvin rocks in this kind of stuff.I'm going it old school buwahaha-inside joke-

after that we all headed our seperate ways..

-p.s sry for the sudden change..something cropped up,havta go
tc everyone