posers

Feeling: per normal
Song:Goo-Goo Dolls - Iris

I SMILE SO THAT PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL
dont you just hate posers?but who am I to judge?I f'cking bite

Ok so lets start of with a rather disheartening issue.Mr Poh,no, not the kung fu panda but my English and literature teacher is leaving the school for the second time.And prelims are so close.It doesnt matter to me though.He isnt dead.He wont be gone forever and I'll see him when I see him.Over this few months I've gotten to know him well and picked up pointers for myself as well.Always laughing the fellow =D.
Yes his leaving does sadden my heart and I bet a few as well so I'll bring up this matter:dramatising.I'm not one to judge but dont you think its way too far if you feel so upset about him leaving that you put a glum face?How can a person complain how sucky he is and yet feel so upset when he leaves.Better still,you feel offended when other people state the fact.Isnt that being a hypocrite?I maybe living "under a rock" but I think that definition is still the same. theres a saying;"you reap what you sow" or to put it easier " if you dont want people to ogle,dont wear revealing clothes" or another one is "ask a stupid question,get a stupid answer,do a stupid act,get a stupid respond".
But who am I to judge.I bet for every 1 mistake I point out to any of you,you guys can point out 2.hahaha.

2nd issue.Girls.Thy arent fat.You look beautiful the way you are.I am fat.If you physical state is like mine,then your fat.But I dont think that way.Each one of us are beautiful in there own way.

I feel insignificant.I can be in that person's same timetable and no one notices.I can cut my hair and change my shoes and heck change my bag to a grey coloured one and no one realises me.This is really sad at one point.I try to be somebody in school yet no one notices me when I keep quiet.but when I do talk people ask me to shut up.Am I such a "pimple" or an "extra" to the majority?I dont want to reveal every single part of my life to the public.I dont want them to know what I've seen.What I've heard.What my thoughts are.Ironically I prefer it to this way.I just want a group of friends to hang out with,someone to talk to and hug.Lead life to my fullest.
but still it would be best if someone just came up to me and said "HI wanna be best friends?"that would be spiffy.
anyway nights all
take care and much love

dont feel like chatting

Feeling : "dont bother"
Song: - Today is probably the longest day I ever experience as I only got no less of 2 hours of sleep from yesterday morning till now due to night shift work.All I wanted was a good swim and someone to have a good chat to this weekend.Yet both disappointed me greatly.
I sprained my left arm while swimming and when I got online,there was no one to talk to or atleast wants to talk to me.

So today has left me with a very unpleasant day..I just need a friend to count on I suppose.A real one..
nuff said.Tc

EMO!

Feeling: Abandoned

Song: The Killers - Mr. Brightside
Rihanna - Cry

A DATE WITH ME,MYSELF & I.
who said misery loves company? Hmm..Decided to watch "The Dark Knight" today so I asked around to see anyone was free and note to self,always ask 3 days in advance.That would be spiffy.Long story short,after finding a date,she didn't came or I didn't see her so I went to the movies myself.[for those interesting in my emotional blogging,it be later on in this post]

So..I went to Tampines Mall and got the 5,55 slot.haha yes they do have those sort of slots.I have something to say about this movie.Batman is freaking awesome.Emphasis on freaking and also awesome.The whole movie kept me on the edge of my seat.It actually made me feel as if I was watching it for 4 hours.No its not boring,its thaaat awesome.
However there were a lot of downside,which was actually influence by the main plot,which I dont really like,so little kiddies,this ain't a show for you.

But yeah the movie follows a lot from the actual plot.Building jumping,explosion and sadistic ideas.I cant tell you all the stories,well that would make me a wet blanket.Just go check it out.You wont regret it.

so anyway[here it comes]

I feel extremely sad.I dont know if you really wanted to go or something happened or just stood me up.It made me feel worse when I was right there,calling for you in front of your window,boy I looked like an idiot.I was already an idiot who just decided to say "hey lets go on a date" and didn't tell you what time we should meet.I decided to wait.and wait.and wait.I knew something like this was going to happen deep down in my mind but I just had to try.I wanted to sort it out.For once girl,you make me head over heels.For once I think I'm in love again but then I fall.
Yet I'm more worried then you feel that I stood you up instead of feeling that you stood me up.

I feel like crying now.I feel like a fool if I cry.I wonder why I hid all my pain away.
Is it because of my smile,people think I'm ok? Or is it because I want people to think I'm ok,I smile.I know clearly,I have a great home.A loving family.Awesome friends.A good life. But why do I feel as if I'm hollow inside.Its scary.I have everything I always wanted 2 years ago but now I feel so empty.

Maybe its how I look.Who wants to love a guy like me.Even I myself don't know who I am nor does the great internet.The internet which suppose to know everything.Try searching the definition of "Sabri" is either not listed or powerful people.My mum tells me its defined as patience and with patience breeds maturity.But am I that person.I dont know.
I need time to think..of did I have too much of time to think that I drifted far away from my goal?
Questions,no answer.

I feel like a DC superhero,just without the superpowers.

crap

mood: "darn it"
song : Yellowcard - Gifts & Curses

MIND GAMES..
holy crap

Ever woke up thinking " Do i have to go through all this again?".
I have.For the past few days I've been wondering what I've been doing all this time.Why does everything seem so familiar even though it has never occurred before.Is this a weird case of deja vu? or maybe it did happen before.Maybe thats why I feel so dog-gone tired this days.
Is it just a mind game?or is it the same thing repeating just on a different day?

I feel extremely low this past few weeks.I just dont know why.
I feel as if I'm a different person everywhere I go or hang out with my groups of friends.

I feel like screaming to everyone who looks down on me or nags.I want them to shut the hell up.
I know its wrong to do that but things are driving me crazy.

Never the less,I still wanna make people smile.Even if it involves myself.Maybe thats my downfall.Making people smile too much while involving me.
I dont bother.Making their day is much better then cursing how sucky my life is,its better then complaining how hard teenage life is.Its better then thinking all is lost.
ITS BETTER.

Maybe I should start drawing again.Well I'm off to see the doctor and have a freaking hair cut.
doodles.

"like the person because of his similarities, love the person for his differences."-quote from hellboy,the movie

until the day i die

Mood: -
song : Story Of The Year - Until The Day I Die

UNTIL THE DAY I DIE
hey guys here's a song recommendation for you to listen it freaking awesome haha
and p.s for those who are complaining why I dont put up my daily activities,I just dont see the need to put everything I see or say thats why I'm usually going to post up up coming (mis)events,song/music recommendation or when I'm being whiney and bitchy bcoz thats something everyone can relate to.Anywho enjoy the vid and song.Its worth it.=)
take care

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die