why

i know i know i owe a decent entry instead of another vid but its my blog! ahaha enjoy this entry by secondhand seranade-why which i found on marieta's blog haha

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.

flaws and all

My apology for being a bitch yesterday haha
heres a vid to compensate all that ;)
enjoy



Flaws And All lyrics

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

Don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you

living you life

comic from licd

God knows if something is wrong with me.Lappy's harddrive crashed during the weekend which i was planning to do my WDS so I had to wait till today in the morning to pick it up.Apparently everything was reseted due to the restoration which brings me to square one.Bad day eh? haha I dont mind though coz I got most of my work in hard copy already so I gotta put up an all nighter to do my work.Again

haha.I cant get that feeling I've been having this past few weeks.I really hate it.Why should people tell me what to do when I know what I'm doing -most of the time anyway. It isnt as if I go clubbing and come back late or slept with sleezy girls or taking drugs.They maybe right since what Im doing might lead to such a thing but I'm better then that.I'm not stupid.

I'm so sick and tired of everyone saying I cant do this or I have to do that or maybe there's another way of doing.Why cant I live my life? should I be kept in a bubble all my life? Should I be kept away from troubles that will hurt and scare me?

I've always brought this sayings for the past 3 years;"What doesnt kill me makes me stronger so why not do it?" and "living my life to the fullest by the wisest" kinda contradictory isnt it? but who gives a damn. Its what makes me happy.

I've shown concern to people yet they see it as an annoyance.Seriously,I shouldnt have been bothered by you. If I'm that annoying say it straight out and dont see my face ever again.Isnt that better then to curse my name every time I say something to you?

I dont know why but its this type of "attitude" that makes me so sick this back mouthing me,embarresing me and then realising what they did only to laugh it out to the others.Whats wrong with having fun while I'm doing my stuff? Whats wrong in making new friends while having fun? Why should we always bring the worst case scenario every where we go. Yes wost casr scenario is great so that we cant think ahead but if everyone is so pessimestic about everything,to the last single dot,what are you guys doing now?

Just live your fucking life without pulling others down god dammit.

nights people

a decent post Yohohoho, yohohoho

ello there everyone. I did promise a decent entry right? haha so lets go trough the blog updates before enything aites.as you guys can see,I've put up a new blogskin,updated my links and put up a counter.Not too sure bout the counter though seems like no one visited it yet :s. nevermind! I'll grab new readers if I have to! whoooo

haha anyways

there was a presentation on monday.Went better then expected seriously.I feel good bout it and the guys were really sorry for well nt helping much but I should really thank them.They saved me again haah.

well didnt go to school on tues because everyone thought it was e-learning day but apparently it was.Hell broke loose.nuff said bout that

wedsday was well hmm fun haha! went to techno for lunch.Damn been awhile since I've been to that place :D oh yeah preston tagged along for lunch :D stayed back to teach riyas then played CZ! muwahha fun man.Went back around 9? i dunno didnt care

yesterday

didnt bring anything to school.Seriously because was planning to go orchard with the gang! before that we had to wait for appel class for half and hour to find out it was next week gaah! troublesome man.anyway we made our way to orchard when everyone stop at somerset.I also follow la but then they wanted to pick up riyas's gal when I realise I had a date with my old friends. So waved good bye and waited for the next train to orchard.

met joelle first and booked the tickets to harry potter and the half blood prince.Wished they could go a little further though,nt much details rawr D:

Today,did practically nothing besides fantically finding a new blogskin then editing haha.Then later in the evening went to down to slack with mom and all haha.

Yes I know I have a weird family,who doesnt.

Anyway imma leave you all with pictures aites? enjoy

Eddie:I cant tie my tie

Nad: lemme do it

Wati:Macam mak orang
Afiq:Nari nak makan ape ah..hmmm
eddie on seeing the picture on wati's blog: bwahahaha~!! cute XD muwahaha
my chemical geeks?
Eddie:Kiss my hand and offer me coffee as respect.I have spoken dananana anana -tune of the god father-
Eric:Yoshu!

Hafiz:Cak!
JY: watch out! I got 2 bodyguards you know

Riyas:Can you see me now?

Hafiz: CHEEZE
Afiq:I dig my nose because I want to.
Riyas:What?I'm hungry?!

muzammil:waaaat?-most annoying voice ever-

bitter sweet

here's an entry by kanye west. enjoy :)

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me
I dont want you, but I need you,
I love you and I hate you at the very same time

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before, thats what the virgin said
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says
God talk to me now this is an emergency

And she claim she only with me for the currency,
You cut me deep bitch cut me like surgery

And I was to proud to admit that it was hurtin me
I'd never do that to you at least purposely

We breakin up again we makin up again
but we dont love no more
I guess we fuckin then

Have you ever felt like you wanted to kill her
and you mixed them emotions with tequilla

and you mixed that with a little bad advice
on one of them bad nights
you have a bad fight

and you talkin bout her family her aunts and shit
and she sayin muhfucka yo mama's a bitch
you know domestic drama and shit

All the attitude
ill never hit a girl but ill shake the shit out of you

but im a be the bigger man
big pimpin like jigga man
oh i figure its

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me
I dont want you, but I need you,
I love you and I hate you at the very same time

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before, thats what the virgin said
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says
God talk to me now this is an emergency

And my nigga says I shouldn't let her worry me
I need to focus on the girls we gettin currently
But I've been thinking and it got me back to sinking it
This relationship, it even got me back to drinking now

This Hennessey, is gon be the death of me

And I always thought that you havin my child was our destiny
But I can't even vibe wit you sexually
Cause every time that I try you will question me
Say "you fuckin them girls, disrespecting me?
You don't see how your lies are affecting me?
You don't see how our life was supposed to be?
And I never let a nigga get that close to me!
And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be!
You always gone! You always be where them hoes would be!"
And it's the first time she ever spilled her soul to me!
I fucked up and I know it G
I guess it's bittersweet poetry

super duper busy

so sorry,super duper effing busy.
I promise to give a decent blog entry and a tag reply as soon as i'm free,hopefully by weds.
anyway

phear his cuteness in all his glory.
Imma call him jon. jon be my kitty

nights all

ps: please feel free to laugh at me tommorow in school but not before the presentations.please and thank you :)

Ku cubah kejam mata tapi tak lena

Izinkan diriku meluahkan rasa,
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa,
Biar ku paparkn apa yg terjadi,
Moga engkau tak ulangi.

Sungguh tak ku sangka kau berpaling tadah,
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta,
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya,
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya.

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia,
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka,
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana,
Setakat di bibir saja.

Sayang...
Kau bina mahligai dari air mata,
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepiku,
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata,
Terhumban rasa diriku.

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati,
Janji manis dan saat romantis,
Kau pintaku supaya setia,
Akhirnya kau yang berubah.

Oh tuhanku tabahkan hatiku,
Temukan dengan ketenangan jiwa ini,
Dibelasah rindu,
Tetapi apa dayaku.

Ku cuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena,
Keranaku masih teringat pada mu,
Begitu payah nya nak ku melupakan,
Pernah kah kau memikirkan oh sayang...

wake me up when september ends

yeah I drew that,feeling quite tired as usual.Must be the flu and me sneezing out blood.Jy says its because I'm too hot. I know right muwahahah.I think some tissue tore because I sneezed too hard,nothing to worry about on the secondhand I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO QN 4 OF ASSIGNMENT 1 OF THE @#$#%^& JAVA.GRRR.
Imma as around to see anyone can help me.seeya people :)
ps:dora I aint rotting at home
Ps:Ann got a new body haha nt sure I like it since its hard for me to touch her and stuff :S

nights all :D

new in town

heres a little nice song from a new artist called little boots

heres new in town,enjoy :)

Heard you’re New in town
Want someone to show you around
Well no-one knows this place just quite like me
Well I don’t, hang with the crowd
Where I go, were dressing down
I’ll take you where the music plays for free

So don’t rely on people you meet
Cause no-one is safe in these streets

I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money but we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

What I do, you think so far
Is it all your hoping for
Does it live up to your every dream
Or do, we disappoint
While you make the choice
When you wake up can you hear a scream

So don’t rely on people you meet
Cause no-one is safe in these streets

I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

Cause I know how it feels to be alone
When strangers only make you feel apart
You never, ever felt so far from home
You never felt so far from home

I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

i dont feel like talking lately,dont know why just dnt feel like it.meh
haha nite people or morning either or haha

day and nite

I cant see proper no more these days at night.

my feel so tired during the mornings and cant sleep at night.

m body keeps fidgeting by itself again.

I'm trying my best to control it and not worry anyone

but I'm not worried bout myself.

Never was never been.

My friend is sick.really sick I'm worried bout him now hopefully he'll recover and the 6 of us will have good times again

I'm trying so hard to keep everything and everyone I achieved over this 5 months.

I'm willing to put my last time so everyone around me is finally smiling

Dont tell me to give up on you when deep down I feel like giving up

Its like putting a gun at me at blank point.

Its great to help someone but it makes me so sick to the gut when whatever I said always falls on deaf ears.

I'm beat,I'm sorry

But I'm trying my best.

Yet every day I keep pushing myself,smiling so no one has to fret

I tried not smiling and everyone around me that day asked if I was ok

Everyone changes I know that,some dont.

I wanna make sure everyone makes happy but what about me.

No one I tried to keep hold on to spared a thought bout me.

No one I tried to keep hold on to asked if I'm ok.

If you keep pushing me when I try to help,then I wont bother.Thats how I do things

If I try helping and yet you never listen and get hurt again,I wont waste my breathe

because

I feel so angry

I feel so mad

I feel so pissed

I feel so depressed

I feel so dissapointed

I feel so hurt

I feel so lost

I feel so speechless

Nevermind I'm just having a bad week thats all.

have a fucking nice day,because I aint having much