every inch

every inch,every part of my body feels as if its tearing apart right now.My stomach,my left arm,my back.Just now my stomach cramped up.Could hardly breath no less move.It hurt.

I'm asking myself..why cant I just stand down,then I remembered,I did..for a long time..so why arent I at my peak again.

WHATS WITH ALL THIS ACHES?
WHY DO I STILL MOVE WHEN MY BODY ACHES SO MUCH?

I feel pathetic.I felt more pathetic when two of my juniors told me that I've changed.Made me feel even worst.The fact that I keep changing.The fact that I'm still not sure who I am.

how I keep moving,inch by inch right now is amazing.

night...